WHAT'S THE MATTER Why the low mood, the picking at food? Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's hormones. Explanation's cheap but sometimes hits the mark. I am the target of mysterious arrows I myself let sling. O that's your fantasy of omnipotence. You make everything your thing. All day I stayed in bed. It seemed someone else must have been alive have done what I did. Failed to do what I failed to do. It's still in my head those things I did and said and cared for doing but it's all gone white like green hills in certain light as Dante says the hillsides can go white in the middle of a new life. GLACIAL ERRATIC Boulders flung everywhere signs of the glacier god marking the path you can't take. "I am in Brooklyn but not of Brooklyn." "Do you have an avidity for the new?" Some violence is very slow until it makes itself felt. Makes you feel it. "I need to write good fast music. All my good music is slow." How should a person be? "I am happy to be contemporary." "I am glad I will die before all this prevails." In child pose you breathe through the back. Then there's the rest, all those positions you flow or stumble through until that rock. That specific rock. from This Blue Farrar, Straus and Giroux 2014, Maureen N. McLane, used by permission of the author and FSG. Maureen N. McLane grew up in upstate New York and was educated at Harvard, Oxford, and the University of Chicago. She is the author of World Enough (2010), and Same Life: poems (2008); and This Blue (2014); as well as the poetry chapbook, This Carrying Life (2006). She has also published two books of literary criticism, Balladeering, Minstrelsy, and the Making of British Romantic Poetry (2008) and Romanticism and the Human Sciences (2000), and coedited The Cambridge Companion to British Romantic Poetry (2008). Her book, My Poets (2012)—an experimental hybrid of memoir and criticism—was a finalist for the 2012 National Book Critics Circle Award in autobiography. World Enough was named one of 2010’s Five Best Poetry Books by Library Journal and one of the year’s 10 Best Books of Poems by Paul Muldoon in The New Yorker. Same Life—finalist for both The Lambda Literary Award and The Publishing Triangle Audre Lorde Award—was also named one of the year’s best books by the Chicago Tribune. This Blue is a longlist nominee for the National Book Award. You can read McLane's On Reviewing which appeared on Lemon Hound in 2010.